SURGEON GENERAL WARNING...SMOKERS SUCK!!!!!!!!!

Greetings! I bring good tidings and cheer. Yeah, whatever. As some of you know or don’t know I had my doctors appointment yesterday. There was some good news as well as some bad, let us go over the bad first.

Those of you who have followed by blog know that my original cocktail of AIDS meds truvada/sustiva didn’t quite work out for the better. I was having a rash, and then some pretty severe anxiety issues. I wanted to kill the cats, kids, and stupid people in general. Well according to some tests it caused permanent CNS (central nervous system) damage. I am not a drooling vegetable or anything; however it affected the part of my CNS which regulates anxiety. So I probably will be on anti-anxiety medicine for an extended period of time. Meaning that my temper which was really bad before is now even worse when pressed. Think about that next time you cut me off on the interstate you freaking morons.

During my hospital visits earlier this year my arm had ample opportunity to develop thrombosis. Basically that is a condition where your vein collapses and causes a series of blood clots in the area in which an IV is placed. Back in February my doctor requested that we give it six months to heal itself. Officially six months is over and now my hand actually goes numb sometimes and I lose complete feeling. Well that is a lie, I can feel that it is much colder than the rest of my body. That seems to be the primary concern right now. So surgery will be scheduled when I meet with the neurologist/cardiologist sometime here in the near future.

Now for all of you who might be wondering about the title of today’s recounted sage here goes. We seem to have found the roots of my lung issues. First of all being exposed to secondhand smoke for most of my life didn’t help my situation. For all you smokers who say the only ones you are hurting is yourself is utter BULLSHIT. Why should I be the one that has to be inconvenienced and go outside when it is you who is polluting the air with known cancer causing agents. The other reason is because of Grady Healthcare System. When I started going to them in late October sick as a dog they told me I didn’t have HIV, Syphilis, or any other STD. They also told me that I didn’t have bronchitis or pneumonia. They gathered that by ONE CHEST X-RAY. They did nothing more than tell me I had the FUCKING FLU for FOUR MONTHS. Of course do not think that yours truly did not protest that diagnosis but what could I do? So this entire time for FOUR MONTHS this bacteria was eating my lung which caused bronchitis and then pneumonia to form. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE YOU EVIL BASTARDS! I HOPE YOU GET THE SAME LEVEL OF CARE YOU GAVE ME WHEN YOU’RE FREAKING SICK! Alright sorry for the outburst however, I think it was warranted.

Now for the GOOD NEWS!!!!! I had my labs drawn at the beginning of the month. I got the results yesterday. My CD4 count has risen by 221 to an amazing 638 (that is great considering the average male has about 1000). My viral load (the amount of virus in your blood) dropped by 500 to 170. This means that my new cocktail is working really well. I was really glad to hear that my numbers were so good considering the fact that when I had labs drawn I was sick. Now that they are much better we can start working on issues that we couldn’t before because my viral load was so off the chain.

On to other news…Jarred and I are doing really well. We’ve talked a lot about my fears and concerns with him being negative. The fear of being left at the most down point in my life is very real. He assures me that he will be there through the thick and the thin. I believe him with all of my heart, however, it is my own demon that I have to fight and it does continue to get better. He is still trying to sell his house. He got a new real estate agent that hopefully will be a lot better job than his last P.O.S. agent.

My best friend Ms. Jenkins (AKA Wayne) dumped his lover of 10 years. It’s been a real trying time for him with work and people not paying him (the attorney bastards). So I am about to pull some ghetto bill collecting action on the people that owe him money. Overall he is much happier being single and able to do his own thing. He just gets to sleep with all the men that I would have if I didn’t have such a wonderful boyfriend/partner/lover/husband. Gay relationships are kind of funny. You really don’t know what to call each other because there is a stage where you are more than boyfriends but not quite lovers yet. If anyone knows of a term please let me know J

Well kiddies that is about it for now. Uncle James is ready to sign off for the time being.

James’ words of wisdom: If you can’t be good then be good at it.