Bearer of bad news...

So last night I had to go to Hoedowns and tell my friends who were also Lee's friends of his passing. I only got to the second person and wouldn't you know it...who showed up? Therapist James. I was having to console everyone all the while I was still searching for that one person, that one mutual friend with whom the consoling would be shared. And finally I found her. I told Genevieve hugged her and she started crying. During our hug she put her arms around me and for the first time since I knew he passed I was able to just cry. We cried and finally were able to get back to the dance floor and tell stories that made us laugh.

My best friend Wayne is struggling right now. With every AIDS related complication death that we go through it brings up our very since of mortality. Wayne told me that he has been having some disturbing dreams but didn't want to go into a lot of detail. Please keep him in your happy thoughts right now.

The wake is tonight from 6-9 and the funeral is tomorrow morning. Hoedowns is actually throwing a private get together on Monday from 6-9 to honor Lee and tell stories. We know he would want us to have some beers and dance our asses off. So that is what we just may do!

Lee has finally ascended to the "triple wide trailor park" where he is dancing amongst the stars.

AIDS Strikes Again

So it has been a little over a month since Matthew passed away unexpectedly from AIDS Related Complications. Just when I start to cope and deal with his death I get word tonight that yet another one of my friends (Lee Medley, a DJ whom I have known for MANY MANY years) has passed away because of AIDS Complications. I cannot say anymore than I have already said. People wonder why I am not necessarily the easiest person in the world to get close to...go back and read the last few posts. I am tired of losing my friends.

Happy Booby Cancer Awareness Month

Hey all!

I know it's been a while since my last update. Things have just been really hectic in my life. I am still trying to get things in regards to my feelings about Matt's death ironed out and move on. I am just not ready to right now. So moving on...

As most of you know October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Your's truely is a TWO TIME SURVIVOR. I was diagnosed in 2001 and again in 2003. Invasive Ductal Carcinoma of the left breast. I share this story with you because Breast Cancer much like HIV doesn't care who you are. I go for a mammogram (IT HURTS LIKE HELL CONSIDERING I DON'T HAVE A LOT OF BREAST TISSUE TO SQUEEZE THE HELL OUT OF!!!!!!!!!!) every 6 months and do my Self Breast Exam once a month. So to celebrate this month of awareness soap up your boobys and feel for lumps! Early detection saves lives...it saved mine :)


Hugs and love,

James