A becon of light has been extinguished.

It's been a while since my last update. Nothing new to report about labs or such. A friend of mine of 6 years passed away on Thursday April 19. At this point I still haven't gotten over the others so right now I am feeling rather numb.

So yesterday the long journey physically came to an end. We laid Danny to rest. I have cried numerous times but have yet to experience the enevitable breakdown that is going to occur. On Sunday we went to the visitation and on the way I stopped and purchased a miniture disco ball and placed it in with him to be buried. Please let me explain the signifigance of the disco ball.

Many eons ago when Backstreet was the happening place to go Danny and I were out dancing. While I was getting some looks and grabs Danny had guys all over him. When we left the dance floor to take a brief break I asked him..."How in the hell do you do it? They're drawn to you! I don't understand." While not jealous I was curious about his mojo. He simply replied "You gotta let go. You're not dancing with the light. Dance with the light of the disco ball." I heeded his advice, it was a growing process I will admit though. Many other memories I will continue to live out as situations arise. I want to say the following to my friend: Dance among the stars my friend. For they are now your disco ball. NEVER stop dancing!

I pened the following...

The questions swirl in my mind.
How? What if? and even why?
A life that shined so bright;
is now extinguished and
still no answers in sight.

Your smile made a room so bright
and now there is darkness
where there once was light.
How you worked your charm
is beyond me; but then again
as you said...most things go
right over me.

As I stare at your lifeless body,
I expect your laughter to erupt
but you lay quiet in this eternal state.
Your body is so cold I want to warm you so.
Warm you with hugs and shower
you with kisses to make it all
just simply better, but then again
that was just you.

The love that you gave knew no
bounderies; much like your selfless
acts that always were bound to surface.
Even in death you gave of yourself
because you knew just what we would do!

Your life now exists now only in words
and memories that you helped burn.
Burn so deep within my mind
your smile, smell, and always wise words.

Your love exists now only within me.