- Anonymous said...You are very brave to be so open about your (well, ok...our disease). I am in complete isolation and "out" to nobody about it. Thanks for blogging so I feel I'm not alone.
- Anonymous said...I admire you and thank you for your blog. I suffer from our disease in silence and isolation to avoid the shame my children would bare.
- Anonymous said...I wish I had your courage. Your writing is inspirational. YOU are leaving your mark in the world. YOU are making a difference. Thank you.
- Anonymous said...I am so touched by your emotions (1 Sep '06). I cried. Very very badly. I have never been so affected and moved by anyone, not even Mulan :) I have never read a blog (coz I think it's a personal "diary", even though it is meant to be read by strangers) let alone comment on one...I want to thank God for sharing your life so openly and bravely with us who need the strength, courage and direction. I will pray for all those around you too to continue to share their love and comfort with you.
- Anonymous said...I have been reading through your posts. Thank you so much for sharing your life and struggles. I have HIV but I hvae kept it a secret from everyone and thus have isolated myself. Thank you again.
- Anonymous said...I'm praying for you. I know I've always just been a lurker, but you have been a great source of inspiration to me.
- Anonymous said...I was just going through blogs and stumbled upon yours. Its sadly beautiful. Its beauty is in the plain simple and honest language...
- sally06 said...Hi James, I am a positive woman living in Italy. I have been reading just a few posts in your blog but I'm going on reading. I just write to tell you that I understand your fear to be unable to "see and live enough life"
- Sharlene said...I am in my second year of medical school and we are in our "Skin, Blood and Lymph" section. I am learning a lot about life with HIV/AIDS from your blog. I appreciate the honesty in your posts and I thank you for helping me put life to a disease I only [currently and not even that well at this point] understand with facts and numbers. As I read your posts, I notice myself going through a wide range of emotions. This has been so enriching and educational.
- i love what you are doing .please keep it up. `we` need to know that people care.this is my email, please keep in touch.am hiv poz.would like to meet peole like me, am female,live in africa. keep in touch ayo
You all have been such a HUGE source of support and love. When I first started this blog it was meant to keep my family and close friends updated on my health because it's easier for me to convey my thoughts and feelings in writing. What I did not know was that it would reach as far across the world as it has. I have received comments from coast to coast, Europe, Asia, Africa, from HIV positive people to negative people. This blog has been linked to medworm.com, about.aids.com, and several other blogs and websites. I never imagined that me sharing my life and personal struggles would be a source of inspiration.
Today just out of curiosity I put HIV blog into google search and it's with a humble heart I tell you my blog is #1 on the return list. The significance of that is the fact that the more someone clicks on my blog from google the more "popular" it becomes and thus moves further up the list. This of course is not a popularity contest, it's about you helping me get my story out there. I want my story, as odd as it is to me, to continue to be a source of inspiration and hope for people in the world who live in isolation and have no one else to turn to...either by choice or situation.
Thank you my loyal readers for being my inspiration and sticking by me through 5 CRAZY years. Here is to 5 more years.
Love and peace,
James
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James, I found your blog via About.com, and started reading from the beginning, and now up to July, 2005. As recently diagnosed (and on meds (Atripla), and working with the wonderful, local Ryan White group), it has been difficult to adjust my life to the new changes and priorities. Your blog has been *so* helpful in my journey, and gives me strength and hope to get past the fatigue and hassles, and get on with living. Keep it going for all of us looking up to you!
-Budd in NJ
I the new kid on the block who have been living with hiv for 21years and stand strong have a bigfam and freinds who knows my sataus and they are the best never make ne feel diff and I thak GOD for them
My name is Simon and I am a 29 year old male. I first discovered that I was HIV Positive in June of 2009. Three weeks earlier I had gone to a local health center for testing and I was negative. The following week I applied for life insurance and was denied because my test results came back positive. When I received my results, for some reason I was calm. Instead of searching for treatments, I immediately went online to search for the cure – that’s when I ran across the youtube.com presentation of Apostle Shada Mishe. I immediately e-mailed him and he asked me some very basic information: my name, viral load, and age.When I e-mailed him this information, he invited me to come to his home in Toronto to get some Ambush. Ambush was the cure that the Apostle was presenting on youtube.com. The Apostle said that Ambush kills HIV/AIDS completely in 21 days. I traveled to see the Apostle on the 4th of July. Before I left, I sent him a final e-mail asking him if I needed to bring anything and he replied, “just you.” I arrived at the Apostle’s home very early in the morning, in fact, he was still asleep. He greeted me with a big hug and said, “hello my son.” He explained to me that he needed a little more time to finish making the Ambush, so I sat. He then bought in a pan of water and a towel and asked me to take off my socks, and then he washed my feet. He then anointed me from head to feet in oil, as he prayed with me. We sat for hours and talked about almost everything: the state of the world, religion, sex, family, goals, etc. He informed me that from that point on he was my father and there was nothing that I should feel I couldn’t tell him.
Once the Ambush was ready, the Apostle bought some to me in a small glass. He took a sip first then told me to drink it. Surprisingly, it had a pleasant taste.He told me to drink it three times daily for the next three weeks. He packaged it in a bottle and gave it to me. For the next three weeks I took the recommended dosage of Ambush. The Apostle also told me to take a daily vitamin supplement with it. In the first week I felt no change. In the second week I felt very sluggish, nauseated and I noticed that my hair was thinning rapidly. I felt like I was going through chemotherapy. This was a direct contrast to how the Apostle told me I would feel. He said that I would have more energy, my skin would look better and I would feel healthier than I had in a long time. I never stopped taking the Ambush, but I communicated my concerns to the Apostle through e-mail. Each time I e-mailed him, he immediately responded, answering all of my questions and coddling my fears.
I went and got blood work after I completed taking the Ambush. It took a few months for me to go back because I was scared. I knew what I had prayed for and what the Apostle had told me, but if this didn’t work, I would have to face the fact that I would die from AIDS. In early October, I got my test results back. My doctor informed me that he was expecting my viral load to be in the double digit thousands because I had recently contracted the disease, but it came back at 69! This was outstanding. I called the Apostle and we talked over the phone and rejoiced. He told me to come back to see him before I got tested again. I did. He gave me another three week supply of Ambush. On December 21, 2009 I was diagnosed as undetectable. That was the best Christmas present that I could have received.
I am telling my story because there are millions of people infected with HIV/ AIDS. There is a cure! I paid nothing for Ambush and no one has paid me to write this story. This information is pure fact. My hope is that someone with the power to manufacture this cure will read this story, so that thousands of people will stop suffering and dying needlessly of this disease each year. There is hope and I have found it in Ambush and Apostle Shada Mishe.
Article Submitted on January 1, 2010 by Simon T.
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